Too Much Information

i wish

i read
the Bible at night with Mike.

i spin
Becoming the Moon
by Mark Williams
Best of 1980-1990
by U2
Best of 1990-2000
by U2
Demolition
by Ryan Adams
It's Hard to Find a Friend
by Pedro the Lion
Kind of Blue
by Miles Davis, et. al.
Longing
by Katy Bowser
Moment Golden
by Spencer Acuff
Psalms
by Christ Kirkers
They've Got Soul
which i mixed
Yankee Hotel Foxtrot
by Wilco


30.9.02
How We Come to Worship
Rick wanted me to post about something that frustrates me at church. i LOVE Christ Church. Don't get me wrong. i think that this one thing is theologically inconsistent. We have the Eucharist weekly and the pastor says "as is our custom here at Christ Church, the heads of households will break off a chunk of bread for their family and distribute it to them." This strikes me as wrong because (a) elders are to administer the sacraments, not parents and (b) it could be easily perverted e.g. little Billy is acting up and the father withholds the table from him. Additionally, it makes me painfully aware that i am not a member of a family. i shouldn't feel like that during covenant renewal. i AM with my family, with my brothers and sisters in Christ before the throne of our Almighty Father. Anyway, i have been wanting to talk to the pastor about it, but someone brought it up to one of our visiting elders so i think it will be addressed soon.

posted by kristen stewart | 13:42 | thoughts? |


Dancing and Other Weekend Observations
i am a terrible dancer. i don't have excess amounts of rhythm or grace. i tend to try a little too hard. i am clumsy. However, i love dancing. My church had a practice ball on Saturday in conjunction with a membership meeting we had with our elders pro tempore from Moscow. i had such a great time. i especially like waltzing because it is easy. The Virginia Reel and the Gay Gordons are both very fun as well. Dancing the right way is such a pleasurable experience. i can't wait 'til November at the Advance when i get to dance again. Friday night was girls' night out. We ate at Chili's and then we went to see Sweet Home Alabama, which was way more enjoyable than i expected. Yesterday i attended worship services and spent the afternoon at my ruling elders' home with his family and others. i love Sabbath rest. It's the most wonderful way to start the week.

posted by kristen stewart | 10:38 | thoughts? |

29.9.02
Sabbath Reflection
"And can it be that I should gain an interest in the Savior’s blood?
Died He for me, who caused His pain—for me, who Him to death pursued?
Amazing love! How can it be, that Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?
Amazing love! How can it be, that Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?

’Tis mystery all: th’Immortal dies: who can explore His strange design?
In vain the firstborn seraph tries to sound the depths of love divine.
’Tis mercy all! Let earth adore, let angel minds inquire no more.
’Tis mercy all! Let earth adore; let angel minds inquire no more.

He left His Father’s throne above so free, so infinite His grace—
Emptied Himself of all but love, and bled for Adam’s helpless race:
’Tis mercy all, immense and free, for O my God, it found out me!
’Tis mercy all, immense and free, for O my God, it found out me!

Long my imprisoned spirit lay, fast bound in sin and nature’s night;
Thine eye diffused a quickening ray—I woke, the dungeon flamed with light;
My chains fell off, my heart was free, I rose, went forth, and followed Thee.
My chains fell off, my heart was free, I rose, went forth, and followed Thee.

No condemnation now I dread; Jesus, and all in Him, is mine;
Alive in Him, my living Head, and clothed in righteousness divine,
Bold I approach th’eternal throne, and claim the crown, through Christ my own.
Bold I approach th’eternal throne, and claim the crown, through Christ my own."
—Charles Wesley, 1738

posted by kristen stewart | 17:48 | thoughts? |

27.9.02
Help Me Understand
Evangelicals in general are mostly premillenialists. Reformed people are either postmillialists or amillenialists. Evangelicals in general are much more engaged in the cuture politically and socially than your average Reformed person. This makes no sense! Their eschatology lends itself to "convert or perish" messages much more than social justice and dreaming big about changing the world. Because we know that the world is not likely to pass away any day now, we should be at work to redeem and improve our culture. Instead we are busy cloistering ourselves away with like-minded people. We're so busy protecting ourselves and our children from the evils of the world, we forget that we are still called to be in it. This distresses me greatly. How can we love our neighbours as ourselves if we don't know them? We need to sacrifice for them, serve them and love them enough to tell them the gospel of Jesus Christ and God's desire to be in a covenant with them. We are far too complacent and far too willing to horde the goodness of God for ourselves. We have nothing to lose but our own comfort and everything to gain.

posted by kristen stewart | 10:32 | thoughts? |

25.9.02
What i'm Singing to Myself
You are in Michigan
You'll play your songs before the night is through
I'm in my room again
Writing songs about missing you

You'll go to Texas soon
And sing your songs that make people heal
I'll be here in my room
Writing songs about how you make me feel

You're on the highway
I'm here drinking tea
Go sing the things you need to say
Then come be with me
Then come be with me

You are in Illinois
So tell your tale and sing your tune
Making music with the boys
Baby, won't you come back soon

You sing to the crowd, I'm serenading silence
Send you my song, send my heart across the miles
Send my heart across the miles
Send my heart across the miles

You are in Iowa
So pack your guitar and drive till sunrise
I'm waiting by the door, love
And going crazy thinking about your eyes
Thinking about your smile
Won't you hold me in your arms
I have a kiss for every mile
I want to sing you my heart's tune
Baby won't you come back soon
Baby won't you come back soon
"Michigan" by Katy Bowser

posted by kristen stewart | 17:58 | thoughts? |


Things i Love — idea stolen from Gideon
ethnic food (mexican, thai, chinese, greek, italian, et.al.)
children's literature
literature in general
chai tea
espresso based drinks
coffee shops
john calvin
augustine
c.s. lewis
j.r.r. tolkein
learning
poetry
history
classical languages and literature
the Holy Bible
old books
hymnals
singing hymns
singing psalms
writing
blogging
talking to people i love on the phone
talking to people i love in person
my friends
my family
knitting
down comforters
feather pillows
jeans
dresses
all varieties of sandals
a prairie home companion
fireplaces
hiking
tubing down rivers
driving a stick
flying
exploring new places
dreaming
music
dancing
love.

posted by kristen stewart | 11:03 | thoughts? |


A Quiz


Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon Symbolism: More Symbolism Than You Can Shake a Stick At


what movie symbolism are you? find out!
posted by kristen stewart | 10:40 | thoughts? |


A Link
Transitioning from homeschool to high school.

posted by kristen stewart | 07:43 | thoughts? |


Experiencing True Wonder
Yesterday I realized i have let most of the carefree joy out of my life. i am bogged down with schoolwork and work and InterVarsity and routine... so little of what i do everyday do i take pleasure in. i was babysitting yesterday and we decided to blow bubbles on the back porch. Mostly i blew while she chased. i began to see the freedom with which she ran, the joy of her pursuit, the wonder when a bubble did something out of the ordinary, such as getting caught up in a gust of wind. To have the purity of purpose and peace of that small child, that would revolutionize my life.

posted by kristen stewart | 07:29 | thoughts? |

23.9.02
Dining with Kristen
i highly recommend you try Ethiopian food, if you get the chance. *insert terrible joke about Ethiopians and food here and get it out of your system* Eating Ethiopian is different than most other dining experiences because you don't get utensils. They give you a lot of spongy, flat flexible bread and you tear off pieces and scoop the food up with it. The food itself is vegtables and meats and eggs prepared with distinct Ehtiopian spices. It's hard to describe the flavour, but it isn't so strong that i'd doubt you'd like it. They serve the whole table on one dish, placing what you ordered in front of you, Still, eating off the same plate is very community building. Beware, your fingers get a bit messy!

posted by kristen stewart | 14:22 | thoughts? |


Blogger Bugs
Argh. Blogger is on my nerves. it's pretending i can't change my template. And though i can post and publish, it says i last published 16 Sept (last Mon) and shows those posts as the last five... and it's only doing it on THIS blog and not the one i use for links.

posted by kristen stewart | 10:52 | thoughts? |

22.9.02
Sabbath Reflection
Guide me, O thou great Jehovah, pilgrim though this barren land;
I am weak, but thou art mighty; hold me with thy powerful hand;
Bread of heaven, Bread of heaven,
feed me till I want no more, feed me till I want no more.

Open now the crystal fountain, whence the healing stream doth flow;
let the fire and cloudy pillar lead me all my journey through;
strong Deliverer, strong Deliverer.
be thou still my Strength and Shield, be thou still my Strength and Shield.

When I tread the verge of Jordan, bid my anxious fears subside;
bear me through the swelling current, land me safe on Canaan's side;
songs of praises, songs of praises,
I will ever give to thee, I will ever give to thee.
—by William Williams, translated from Welsh by Peter Williams

posted by kristen stewart | 12:09 | thoughts? |

20.9.02
A Survey via Jessie
IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE? within walking distance of a college campus
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? good jeans. fun shoes.
FAVOURITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? a nice smile.
WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT? RUF NYC From All Their Sin and Sorrow
WHERE'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE? curled up on my bed reading, in nature, with God's people.
WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE? in line
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? shoulders
WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? mind.
WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP? after one to four snooze cyles.
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? blender.
WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? my own sin and apathy
IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? the cello
FAVOURITE COLOUR? blues, greens, purples & wine
DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? yes.
FAVOURITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? this is too hard! The Chronicles of Narnia in their entirety. The Time Quartet. The Hobbit. The Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler. Fairy Tales.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON? Autumn.
WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? Washing dishes.
IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Mind-reading
IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? On the middle of my lower back i have this really neat celtic knot and it's multicoloured and... oh. i made that up. i am tattoo-less.
CAN YOU JUGGLE? no. i wish i could!
PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD TALK TO? my friend Orion.
WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE DAY? the Sabbath.
WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? a jack. jumper cables. a chair.
WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? depends on my mood :o) i love them both.

posted by kristen stewart | 23:20 | thoughts? |


It's Really Good
Rachel's first piece published at Chasing Hats.

posted by kristen stewart | 07:12 | thoughts? |

19.9.02
Bring Me!
Register here to win a trip anywhere on the planet for you and a friend and lots of cool gear from Birkenstock and Patagonia. Where would you go?

posted by kristen stewart | 09:17 | thoughts? |


Languages i Wish i Knew — In Descending Order
Latin
Hebrew
French
Italian
Chinese

posted by kristen stewart | 07:52 | thoughts? |


Blame Jim Hart For Introducing Me To The Song
do you want into the outside in the cool night where the stars gravitate toward you?
do you want into the outside in the cool night where the fog wraps itself around you?
do you want into the outside in the sunshine where the clouds take their places for you?
and the wind and snow and the rain that blows
none of those would matter much without you

as long as it's talking with you
talk of the weather will do

do you want into the outside in the cool night where the stars gravitate toward you?
do you want into the outside in the sunshine where the song repeats itself inside you?
and the wind and snow and the rain that blows
none of those would matter much without you

nobody's hoping for better days and no one knows what to do
you're okay in your secret place no one bothering you
it might save time if i meet you there
but i don't care i'd rather wait for you
no one's home and the weather's fine, rather wait for you
but no one's home and the weather's fine, i'd rather wait for you
—Built to Spill, "The Weather," one of the most haunting, beautiful songs ever. The lyrics alone don't do it justice

posted by kristen stewart | 01:00 | thoughts? |

18.9.02
You're Nobody 'Til Somebody Loves You
i had one of those days where i felt completely useless to society. My glimmer of hope came when i went to babysit. The small girl i spend ten hours a week with was so delighted to have me for a playmate. At one point i was giving her a piggyback ride and she said in the most wistful voice, "Kristen, you're my favourite." "Why?" i inquired. "Because i love you." I asked her later what she wanted for her birthday, as she turns 3 this weekend. "From you?" "Yes, from me." "i just want you to come to my party. Playing with you is a present to me!" She cried when i had to leave. i love her.

posted by kristen stewart | 21:30 | thoughts? |


If You've Never Been, You Wouldn't Know
i caught a glimpse of the Class of 2003 shirts today in the Pit. On the back the design integrates one of my favourite poems, by UNC alumnus Thomas Wolfe.

Sometimes when the Springtime comes,
And the sifting moonlight falls —
They'll think again of this night here
And these old brown walls,
Of white old well, and of old South
With bells deep booming tone,
They'll think again of Chapel Hill and —
Thinking — come back home.
Though i am looking forward to moving away from this area, there is always a part of me that will consider it home. i delight in the thought of bringing my children here to drink from the well and play on the quad and listen to the strong, steady beat of the bell. No matter how hard you try to avoid it, UNC is a place that seeps into your bones. It's universally known amongst those who have spent time here. As another alumnus, Charles Kuralt said, "What is it that binds us to this place as to no other? It is not the well, or the bell, or the stone walls; the crisp October nights or the memories of dogwoods blooming. Our love for this place is based on the fact that it is as it was meant to be — a University of the people."
posted by kristen stewart | 10:22 | thoughts? |

17.9.02
The Perils of Sharing
i am hosting a dinner for half a dozen friends tomorrow. i want to make dessert tonight. My 13 x 9 pan is MIA. This is so annoying. i loan things out, forget who has them and then they are gone forever. It makes me not want to share. If i had a TV, i'd probably watch some Sesame Street to get pumped about sharing again.

posted by kristen stewart | 20:25 | thoughts? |


Fleeting Thoughts of Former Giggles
Early in my college career, i knew this guy who was engaged. He mentioned in passing one day that he had never read Song of Solomon. He had read the Bible through several times, but just skipped it altogether. When he was pressed about it, he admitted his reasoning was that he'd always wanted to read it aloud with his wife someday. He walked away and i was left standing with his best friend/roommate. i reminded this friend that there weren't only two parts in the book. There are those assorted other parts, not so many that you need a whole host of people, just small enough that one person could comfortably read them. He said quite seriously, "i love them both, but i am not going to be the daughters or the brothers or any other part of Song of Solomon for them! i just won't do it!" i concur. Rick, Rachel, when you are married, remember to count me out.

posted by kristen stewart | 16:42 | thoughts? |


Not Just for the Ladies
i've been listening to Doug Wilson's tapes on Femine Modesty, a friend at church lent them to me. They're really quite good. He doesn't merely address women, but talks about mens' roles in feminine modesty. They aren't legalistic. Y'all should give them a listen.

posted by kristen stewart | 15:40 | thoughts? |

16.9.02
Overheard
Kristen: "Why am i so reactionary and knee-jerky?"
Rick: "Because you're reformed."

posted by kristen stewart | 23:20 | thoughts? |


An Air of Self-Importance
Today one of the students in my recitation asked me to write her a letter of recommendation. It was really flattering to have the opportunity to do that for her, and for a moment, my head was so big i was afraid i might fall over. i'm better now.

posted by kristen stewart | 21:04 | thoughts? |


Isaiah 30:15-21 -- To Remind Myself and a Friend
For thus said the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel,
"In repentance and rest you shall be saved;
in quietness and in trust shall be your strength."
But you were unwilling, and you said,
"No! We will flee upon horses";
therefore you shall flee away;
and, "We will ride upon swift steeds";
therefore your pursuers shall be swift.
A thousand shall flee at the threat of one;
at the threat of five you shall flee,
till you are left
like a flagstaff on the top of a mountain,
like a signal on a hill.

Therefore the LORD waits to be gracious to you,
and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you.
For the LORD is a God of justice;
blessed are all those who wait for him.
For a people shall dwell in Zion, in Jerusalem; you shall weep no more. He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry. As soon as he hears it, he answers you. And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your Teacher will not hide himself anymore, but your eyes shall see your Teacher. And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, "This is the way, walk in it," when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.

posted by kristen stewart | 00:00 | thoughts? |

15.9.02
Not a Fight i Will Win, But a Fight Worth Fighting For?
i went to Yom Kippur services today for a Sociology of Religion class. i have to visit three religious services unlike my own. i've made many of these visits as a Religious Studies major, and they have become progressively more difficult. i don't want to watch people worship wrongly. i feel as though i am being torn apart. i am going to go talk to my professor about it. i doubt he'll let me out of the requirement. Please pray with me for wisdom about this matter.

posted by kristen stewart | 23:57 | thoughts? |


Sabbath Reflection
Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Ghost.
As it was in the beginning,
is now, and ever shall be;
world without end. Amen. Amen.
GLORIA PATRI

posted by kristen stewart | 13:37 | thoughts? |

14.9.02
Good Effort, Guys!
Despite a valiant effort, my Tar Heels lost to the Texas Longhorns. We did a lot better than people thought we would. I did a bit of trash talking and upon hearing this song by the UT band, i felt it would be a fair peace offering to post it.

The Eyes of Texas are upon you, all the livelong day!
The Eyes of Texas are upon you, you cannot get away!
Do not think you can escape them, at night or early in the morn!
The Eyes of Texas are upon you, 'til Gabriel blows his horn!

posted by kristen stewart | 22:50 | thoughts? |


Trying to be Like Rick
My Favourite Doonesbury strip ever. Poor Rev. Sloan!

posted by kristen stewart | 18:37 | thoughts? |


How Are You?
The common question of the masses, "how are you?", has been very difficult for me the past week. i found out that i am to be the maid of honour in my best friend's wedding... which takes place six weeks from yesterday as they are expecting a child this spring. That was devastating to me. i know that everyone sins, and that everyone experiences temptation, but it's still really disappointing and hard. The week continued downhill as a grappled with what it means to be single and unattached and free to do God's work. i ended up doing something pretty drastic, and i still have nagging doubt about it. This culminated as several of my friends were hanging out last night and we started singing as one friend worked different songs out on the piano, including Jewel's "Foolish Games," which made me cry. Today, i decided that i would make a change. i did things i loved. i slept in. i got fresh bread from Great Harvest Bread Company. i drove the extra four minutes and went to the Whole Foods Market to grocery shop, as i love their fresh produce, wine tasting and warm, friendly atmosphere. Plus, they sell good beer individually and i am still at the point where i am trying a lot of things and wary of buying a six pack of something i don't like. i guess i could just give it to Jamie or Jessie, Rick and i's mutual friend, Matt. But anyway, after all my fun errands, i realised i was really, truly happy. Even a moment of gladness was quite refreshing.

posted by kristen stewart | 17:09 | thoughts? |


Insights from Other Blogs
My friend Chris on Kierkegaard, Love and Depravity.

posted by kristen stewart | 13:45 | thoughts? |


Typical Evangelical Behaviour
Let's take something secular and make a cheesy, Christian spin-off. The Christian version of MTV's Road Rules debuts next month.

posted by kristen stewart | 12:15 | thoughts? |

13.9.02
Words of Wisdom from my Favourite TV Dad
Bill Cosby accepted an invitation to be the Spring Commencement speaker at UNC! Maybe i'm just shallow, but i'd rather have him than some of the others people nominated, like Kofi Annan. You don't need a ticket to attend or anything, so y'all are cordially invited to come and celebrate my graduation with me.

posted by kristen stewart | 11:14 | thoughts? |


C'mon... Confess...
Mike blogged about the Merriam-Webster Word of the Day listserv. i enjoy receiving it myself. It's a great way to learn obscure words... and useful ones too.

posted by kristen stewart | 01:13 | thoughts? |

12.9.02
What I'm Singing Now
Whate'er my God ordains is right: holy his will abideth;
I will be still whate'er he doth; and follow where he guideth:
He is my God: though dark my road, He holds me that I shall not fall:
Wherefore to him I leave it all.

Whate'er my God ordains is right: He never will deceive me;
He leads me by the proper path; I know he will not leave me:
I take, content, what he hath sent; His hand can turn my griefs away,
And patiently I wait his day.

Whate'er my God ordains is right: though now this cup, in drinking,
May bitter seem to my faint heart, I take it, all unshrinking:
My God is true; each morn anew sweet comfort yet shall fill my heart,
And pain and sorrow shall depart.

Whate'er my God ordains is right: here shall my stand be taken;
Though sorrow, need, or death be mine, yet am I not forsaken;
My Father's care is round me there; He holds me that I shall not fall:
And so to him I leave it all.
—Samuel Rodigast

posted by kristen stewart | 10:35 | thoughts? |

11.9.02
Out of the Mouths of Babes
"The world looks silly when you're Kristen."
—the almost 3 year old i babysit several times a week, upon putting on my glasses

posted by kristen stewart | 21:10 | thoughts? |

10.9.02
From the Local Paper
A column about appreciating your pastor.

I reminded Dr. Smith that it could have been worse, and shared with him the anecdote about a little boy, who, upon leaving the church with his parents one Sunday pressed a bag of change, the contents of his piggy bank, into the minister's hands.

"Now what's this for, Tommy?" protested the preacher. "If you want to give something, you should put it in the collection plate."

"No, sir," said Tommy. "This is just for you to spend because my daddy said you were the poorest preacher we've ever had."

posted by kristen stewart | 08:45 | thoughts? |


A Lesson for the Gentlemen
Several days ago, i met a young man who asked me within five minutes of us being acquainted:
+ if i am a reconstructionist
+ if i am a presuppositionalist
+ if i prefer homeschooling or private schooling
+ if i am incurring debt in college
N.B. Tact is a very good thing. Y'all can do better when you meet new people.

posted by kristen stewart | 06:18 | thoughts? |

8.9.02
Sabbath Reflection
My custom is to post something from the Lord's Day service i attended as a sabbath break from everyday blogging. i usually chose something that stands out, a psalm, hymn, creed or passage of scripture. What stood out to me the most this week was not singing Psalm 128 or "O Sacred Head Now Wounded" nor "Immortal Invisible"--though i love them all. Pastor Leichty preached an amazing sermon on fasting that i will surely remember and reconsider for many months to come. Celebrating the Eucharist, saying the Apostle's Creed, hearing the reading of the Word and the prayers of godly men, none of this impacted me quite so much as the Christian hospitality and warmth of community i continually encounter from the people of Christ Church. i love and appreciate the liturgy, but it is so neat to go to church somewhere refreshingly committed to being welcoming people. And so, instead of highlighting a song this week, i want to highlight them.

posted by kristen stewart | 23:28 | thoughts? |

7.9.02
Digital Cameras Come in Handy
One of my friends took some pictures Thursday night. Thanks Emeth for hosting them.
Here's me with my freshman year suitemates minus the three that already graduated.
i posed under a shiny light with my first drink.
i was caught taking my first shot.

posted by kristen stewart | 12:03 | thoughts? |


Understanding Eustace
"I won't tell you how I became a - dragon till I can tell the others and get it all over," said Eustace. "By the way, I didn't even know it was a dragon till I heard you all using the word when I turned up here the other morning. I want to tell you how I stopped being one."

"Fire ahead," said Edmund.

… "I looked up and saw the very last thing I expected: a huge lion coming slowly toward me. And one queer thing was that there was no moon last night, but there was moonlight where the lion was. So it came nearer and nearer. I was terribly afraid of it. You may think that, being a dragon, I could have knocked any lion out easily enough. But it wasn't that kind of fear. I wasn't afraid of it eating me, I was just afraid of it - if you can understand. Well, it came close up to me and looked straight into my eyes. And I shut my eyes tight. But that wasn't any good because it told me to follow it."

"You mean it spoke?

"I don't know. Now that you mention it, I don't think it did. But it told me all the same. And I knew I'd have to do what it told me, so I got up and followed it. And it led me a long way into the mountains. And there was always this moonlight over and round the lion wherever we went. So at last when we came to the top of a mountain I'd never seen before and on the top of this mountain there was a garden - trees and fruit and everything. In the middle of it there was a well.

"I knew it was a well because you could see the water bubbling up from the bottom of it: but it was a lot bigger than most wells - like a very big, round bath with marble steps going down into it. The water was as clear as anything and I thought if I could get in there and bathe it would ease the pain in my leg. But the lion told me I must undress first. Mind you, I don't know if he said any words out loud or not.

"I was just going to say that I couldn't undress because I hadn't any clothes on when I suddenly thought that dragons are snaky sort of things and snakes can cast their skins. Oh, of course, thought I, that's what the lion means. So I started scratching myself and my scales began coming off all over the place. And then I scratched a little deeper and, instead of just scales coming off here and there, my whole skin started peeling off beautifully like it does after an illness, or as if I was a banana. In a minute or two I just stepped out of it. I could see it lying there beside me, looking rather nasty. It was almost a lovely feeling. So I started to go down into the well for my bathe.

"But just as I was going to put my feet into the water I looked down and saw that they were all hard and rough and wrinkled and scaly just as they had been before. Oh, that's all right, said I, it only means I had another smaller suit on underneath the first one, and I'll have to get out of it too. So I scratched and tore again and this underskin peeled off beautifully and out I stepped and left it lying beside the other one and went down to the well for my bathe.

"Well, exactly the same thing happened again. And I thought to myself, oh dear, how ever many skins have I got to take off? For I was longing to bathe my leg. So I scratched away for the third time and got off a third skin, just like the two others, and stepped out of it. But as soon as I looked at myself in the water I knew it had been no good.

"Then the lion said - but I don't know if it spoke - 'You will have to let me undress you.' I was afraid of his claws, I can tell you, but I was pretty nearly desperate now. So I just lay flat down on my back to let him do it.

"The very first tear he made was so deep that I thought it had gone right into my heart. And when he began pulling the skin off, it hurt worse than anything I've ever felt. The only thing that made me able to bear it was just the pleasure of feeling the stuff peel off. You know - if you've ever picked the scab off a sore place. It hurts like billy-oh but it is such fun to see it coming away."

"I know exactly what you mean." Said Edmund.

"Well, he peeled the beastly stuff right off - just as I thought I'd done it myself the other three times, only they hadn't hurt - and there it was lying on the grass: only ever so much thinker, and darker, and more knobly-looking than the others had been. And there was I as smooth and soft as a peeled switch and smaller than I had been. Then he caught hold of me - I didn't like that much for I was very tender underneath now that I'd no skin on - and threw me into the water. It smarted like anything but only for a moment. After that it became perfectly delicious and as soon as I started swimming and splashing I found that all the pain had gone from my arm. And then I saw why. I'd turned into a boy again.."

"After a bit the lion took me out and dressed me -"

"Dressed you. With his paws?"

"Well, I don't exactly remember that bit. But he did somehow or other: in new clothes--the same ones i've got on now as a matter of fact. And then suddenly i was back here. Which is what makes me think it must have been a dream."

... "I think you've seen Aslan," said Edmund.

--from C.S. Lewis' The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

posted by kristen stewart | 10:20 | thoughts? |


Link of Interest
i wish people would offer up their own prayers. Through Jesus, we have the ability to boldly approach the throne of grace OURSELVES.

posted by kristen stewart | 09:39 | thoughts? |


Anticipation
All week i've been looking forward to tomorrow, when i can go to worship at church. It's a great phenomenon.

posted by kristen stewart | 09:28 | thoughts? |

6.9.02
Safe and Sound
i felt like i should post something to let y'all know i survived my first night being legal. It was rather fun. i recommend having your friends make you a tactful "i'm 21 today! buy me a drink!" sign because you'll get in places without having to pay a cover and people really will buy you drinks. i am going to start a list of drinks i like, drinks i hate. Honestly, for the record, i came home very far from being trashed.

posted by kristen stewart | 10:11 | thoughts? |

4.9.02
They Say It's My Birthday
Wow. I'm 21 now.

posted by kristen stewart | 23:02 | thoughts? |


The Joys of CD-R
Tonight i am creating a new mix CD tenatively entitiled "They've Got Soul."
.1. James Brown . (I'm a) Soul Man
.2. Aretha Franklin . Respect
.3. Smokey Robinson . Shop Around
.4. The Chiffons . One Fine Day
.5. Sam Cooke . Save the Last Dance For Me
.6. Marvin Gaye . Let's Get It On
.7. Aretha Franklin . (You Make Me Feel Like) a Natural Woman
.8. Percy Sledge . When a Man Loves a Woman
.9. The Four Tops . Ain't No Woman Like the One i Got
.10. Stevie Wonder . Isn't She Lovely
.11. Otis Redding . Sitting on the Dock of the Bay
.12. Smokey Robinson . i Second that Emotion
.13. James Brown . i Feel Good
.14. Martha and the Vandellas . Heat Wave
.15. Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell . Ain't No Mountain High Enough
.16. Stevie Wonder . Signed, Sealed, Delivered
.17. Percy Sledge . You Really Got a Hold on Me
.18. Chi-lites . i Found Sunshine
.19. Al Green . Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone
.20. Aretha Franklin . Son of a Preacher Man
i thought that'd fill it up, but a have a lot more room. Any suggestions?

posted by kristen stewart | 22:39 | thoughts? |


Those Pesky eCompanies
Poor Chasing Hats, our hosting company folded without any notice and now Tim's scrambling to get us on some other server. Stay tuned for regular updates on the site's status.

posted by kristen stewart | 22:25 | thoughts? |


Let the Good Times Roll
"i'll make you some pesto, Bella, and send it down, but not this week. i'm still recovering from the weekend. Cy and Vi and Jimmy and Frankie were in and we went out Friday and Saturday and Sunday and Monday. i am still feelin' it."
-- spoken about ten minutes ago on phone by my seventy-something Italian grandma.

posted by kristen stewart | 20:07 | thoughts? |

3.9.02
Assorted Thoughts This Afternoon/Early Evening
+ Pierce Pettis can capture my emotions like no other singer-songwriter. i could listen to him everyday until i died and not grow tired of him.
+ The classic American household of two parents and two children often produces selfish children as they can command one person's undivided attention at all times.
+ Titles are good.
+ Sleep is necessary to effective class attendance. Merely showing up is not the same as showing up awake and alert.
+ There's something magnificent about September, the promise of autumn.
+ 9p can't come soon enough when you really want to call someone on your phone and you don't want to pay for the minutes. Yes, you Rick.

posted by kristen stewart | 19:14 | thoughts? |

2.9.02
A Non-Labourious Weekend
i went to Christ Church again yesterday. i don't think i'll be visiting anywhere else for a while. Good teaching, a sense of order and liturgy, weekly communion with wine and hospitality like nowhere else i've ever been. i hope that isn't lost as it grows. i spent the weekend at home with my family, celebrating my birthday early and relaxing. From my family i received a new CD player, an end table, a gift certificate to Barnes & Noble and a ticket to a Dashboard Confessional concert next month. A new CD player at home and in the car means that the i spin category on the sidebar will be updated more often, for the two of you who care about that. i really enjoyed being home, for the most part. One thing about coming home i dislike is that i have to talk about the future. i just want to avoid the future until it becomes the present.

posted by kristen stewart | 18:04 | thoughts? |

1.9.02
Sabbath Reflection
Advancing still from strength to strength they go where other pilgrims trod,
Till each to Zion comes at length and stands before the face of God.
LORD God of hosts, my pleading hear; O Jacob's God, to me give ear.

Look Thou, O God, upon our Shield; The face of Thine Annointed see;
One day within Thy courts will yield more good than thousands without Thee.
I'd rather stand near my God's house than dwell in tents of wickedness.

For God the LORD is shield and sun; The LORD will grace and glory give.
No good will He withhold from one who does uprightly walk and live.
O LORD of hosts, how blest is he who places all his trust in Thee.
--Psalm 84B

honourable mentions to: "All Glory, Laud and Honour" and "How Sweet and Aweful Is the Place"

posted by kristen stewart | 14:32 | thoughts? |

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